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one of her little hands and tried cleaning her up the best I could.
Her eyes were black and swollen, her lip was swollen but not split and she was favoring her ribs a bit. I took it all in while my hands trembled uncontrollably for the first time in my life and my guts were tied in knots. Every wince, every whimper, I felt down to my soul.
I tried once again to remove myself from the situation just as I would’ve done in combat, until I got the job done, but it wasn’t working here either. It seems that with her all my barriers were down.
That’s one of the things that convinced me more than any other that I was in serious trouble. I know me all too well, knew what the rising tidal wave inside of me meant, and didn’t fight it this time. I’d fought long enough it seemed. Now I just gave in and metaphorically laid down at her feet.
***
I didn’t realize I was crooning to her as I took care of her, the way I’d learned to do with Zakira when she needed settling. I looked down at her poor abused face, trying to find the laughing, flirty young girl who had caught my eye, but who I was too chicken shit to acknowledge.
Why was it so easy to let myself feel now, when I had fought it from the beginning? Now when it might be too late I accepted the fact that none of it mattered, that I had been a blind fool these past coupla weeks.
I wasn’t in the market for what she was selling, or so I’d told myself. I didn’t want what my brothers seemed hell bent for leather to find. That shit just wasn’t for me, though some days I yearned.
I knew though that if I was ever going to take the plunge it would be with her. But I wasn’t there yet and didn’t know if I would ever be, until right now.
I’d rebuffed her at every turn; anyone else would probably have given up long ago. Maybe the third or fourth time I’d turned away from her. I told myself I was giving her every opportunity to move on, to find someone else more suitable, even though the thought almost killed me.
She’d tried though; even though she’d played it subtle, there was no mistaking what she’d been up to. But no matter how hard she made my dick I wasn’t about to go there.
I hadn’t been rude or anything like that, but I knew she got the message loud and clear. The boys had noticed her interest from day one and had had a few laughs at my expense. But there was no give in me; at least not where anyone else could see. Inside it had been a different matter though.
I don’t know, maybe I thought I had time, or that she wasn’t going anywhere and I could get around to it if I changed my mind. That baggage I was lugging around wasn’t meant for two, I couldn’t ask anyone to live with the darkness that was inside of me.
That’s the story I’ve been telling myself all along. But this shit just changed my whole fucking game in the space of an hour. All my hard won resolve, the building blocks, the wall I’d created around my heart and anything I perceived to be a weakness in me, had come tumbling down. Hadn’t even put up much of a fight when it came down to it.
I hated that it had taken this to open my fucking eyes, but it had, no use looking back, yesterday was long gone. Now I just have to look forward, look ahead, and pick up the pieces from this mess if she’d let me…
I stopped that shit right there before it even had a chance. There was no if about it, the decision had been made; she’s mine. Every broken bruised piece of her was now my sole property.
Chapter 8
Tyler
She winced when I tried cleaning the blood from her face. “I’m sorry baby I’m being as gentle as I can.” It hurt me to have to hurt her. The motherfucker had really done a number on her; it made me wonder how come no one came to her rescue.
She had to have been screaming the place down. With this kind of damage there’s no way no one heard her. I’ll find a way to get the names of each and everyone who was on the premises today, anyone that was on
Her eyes were black and swollen, her lip was swollen but not split and she was favoring her ribs a bit. I took it all in while my hands trembled uncontrollably for the first time in my life and my guts were tied in knots. Every wince, every whimper, I felt down to my soul.
I tried once again to remove myself from the situation just as I would’ve done in combat, until I got the job done, but it wasn’t working here either. It seems that with her all my barriers were down.
That’s one of the things that convinced me more than any other that I was in serious trouble. I know me all too well, knew what the rising tidal wave inside of me meant, and didn’t fight it this time. I’d fought long enough it seemed. Now I just gave in and metaphorically laid down at her feet.
***
I didn’t realize I was crooning to her as I took care of her, the way I’d learned to do with Zakira when she needed settling. I looked down at her poor abused face, trying to find the laughing, flirty young girl who had caught my eye, but who I was too chicken shit to acknowledge.
Why was it so easy to let myself feel now, when I had fought it from the beginning? Now when it might be too late I accepted the fact that none of it mattered, that I had been a blind fool these past coupla weeks.
I wasn’t in the market for what she was selling, or so I’d told myself. I didn’t want what my brothers seemed hell bent for leather to find. That shit just wasn’t for me, though some days I yearned.
I knew though that if I was ever going to take the plunge it would be with her. But I wasn’t there yet and didn’t know if I would ever be, until right now.
I’d rebuffed her at every turn; anyone else would probably have given up long ago. Maybe the third or fourth time I’d turned away from her. I told myself I was giving her every opportunity to move on, to find someone else more suitable, even though the thought almost killed me.
She’d tried though; even though she’d played it subtle, there was no mistaking what she’d been up to. But no matter how hard she made my dick I wasn’t about to go there.
I hadn’t been rude or anything like that, but I knew she got the message loud and clear. The boys had noticed her interest from day one and had had a few laughs at my expense. But there was no give in me; at least not where anyone else could see. Inside it had been a different matter though.
I don’t know, maybe I thought I had time, or that she wasn’t going anywhere and I could get around to it if I changed my mind. That baggage I was lugging around wasn’t meant for two, I couldn’t ask anyone to live with the darkness that was inside of me.
That’s the story I’ve been telling myself all along. But this shit just changed my whole fucking game in the space of an hour. All my hard won resolve, the building blocks, the wall I’d created around my heart and anything I perceived to be a weakness in me, had come tumbling down. Hadn’t even put up much of a fight when it came down to it.
I hated that it had taken this to open my fucking eyes, but it had, no use looking back, yesterday was long gone. Now I just have to look forward, look ahead, and pick up the pieces from this mess if she’d let me…
I stopped that shit right there before it even had a chance. There was no if about it, the decision had been made; she’s mine. Every broken bruised piece of her was now my sole property.
Chapter 8
Tyler
She winced when I tried cleaning the blood from her face. “I’m sorry baby I’m being as gentle as I can.” It hurt me to have to hurt her. The motherfucker had really done a number on her; it made me wonder how come no one came to her rescue.
She had to have been screaming the place down. With this kind of damage there’s no way no one heard her. I’ll find a way to get the names of each and everyone who was on the premises today, anyone that was on
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