him. But it’s not about me anymore. And I can’t be with someone who obviously lies to me. But also knowing he doesn’t want what I am bringing in to this world. It all is a deal breaker. I am done.
CHAPTER 7
TONI
4 YEARS LATER!
Today marks 4 years since I have seen my beautiful Haylee. 4 years ago today we were in Vegas and everything in my life went to shit. After Haylee slapped me and stormed off I never saw her again. She disappeared for good. As soon as I got back from Vegas I tasked Vinnie on tracking her. He is our tech guy here and is damn good at his job. If we need to find someone or get information, he can always find it. But for some reason he can never find Haylee. At first I had him searching for her all the time. As time pasted I required monthly checks to tell me if he has anything new. And like always he has nothing. All he can ever tell me is she flew out of Vegas back to San Diego that night and then nothing. At first it ripped me apart. I worried myself sick wondering if she was hurt, did someone do something to her but after 6 months Tank finally told me he knows she is safe and fine. He swears he has no idea where she is or has been. That all he knows was she was fine. I even cornered Monica a few times to tell me where she was but all she ever said was her loyalty stays with Haylee. And damn if those women have a bond stronger than any brother I have because she doesn’t budge at all. I even went a little far and threatened to harm her if she didn’t tell me. Of course she laughed in my face. She knew I wouldn’t touch a hair on her head. One because hurting Haylee’s best friend wouldn’t win her back but also she is engaged to Diablos President. And well let’s just say the idea of threatening her got my ass beat so bad I wound up in the hospital. Yeah learned my lesson on that one. Thankfully Tank and Monica forgave me. They both said they understand I am desperate and just want Haylee back but I need to let her go. That it is better for both of us if I let her go. The only thing no one realizes I can never let her go. Can you ever let go the love of your life? And she truly is the love of my life. I didn’t realize that until she was gone but I am truly deeply in love with her.
I will say one thing good came out of that day. If I can find some good out of all this fucking mess. Is I finally found Vera. And I finally got my divorce. God I never thought having one little piece of paper signed by a judge would feel so great but damn it. It felt fantastic. The only better feeling is being with Haylee.
God I miss her. I know I will find her one day. I will never stop looking for her. But until then I have learned to enjoy my life. And today is one day I am going to try and enjoy. I wish it was my day to stand up at the alter and say vowels to Haylee but instead it is Tank and Monica’s day. And I am truly happy for those two. They make each other so happy. Although Tank is very nervous. A little more nervous than you would think a groom would be. He has been barking orders at everyone and just on edge. I told him the other day to relax or I was going to beat the shit out of him. I know Monica is driving him bat shit crazy about making sure everything turns out just right but the way he is acting it seems like something else is bothering him. Like something big is happening. But he won’t tell. I even asked Monica what was wrong with him and she just waved it off as if it was nothing.
Even now standing waiting for this to start he is pacing back and forth. “Dude you are going to make a path in the grass and Monica is going to kick your ass.”
“Shut up Toni.” Tank barks and waves me off.
“Hey is that any way to talk to your best man?” I say laughing. Honestly I
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