through trying to buy a gutzer.â
You could sit for hour after hour in the mechanic oblivion and mechanic excitement of the falling cardsâeven the cramped and aching muscles from uncomfortable positions became part of the patternâyou became reluctant to ease your aching back and legs because that meant leaving the security, the refuge, of this cave of cardsâand outside the night is empty.
Soldiersâ talk is casually blasphemous and obscene but thereâs no real offence in itâit doesnât mean what it says, mostly.
They talk about women, of course. They tell lies about their conquests and amorous adventures in Alexandria and Athensâsome rapacious Egyptian trollop can become a Cleopatra in retrospect, and an Athenian shop girl is touched with the immortal fire of Helenâor are you sure she was not your Helen? They sacked and plundered more than Troy to tear her from your arms, and she wept when you were leaving, and I doubt if Helenâs ancient tears made such bright and bitter rain.
But the fierce sexual torments that the popular novelists attribute to the soldier on the tropic isle are not for us. You donât find them so much in the infantryânot when thereâs a blue brewing anyway. Those placid, safe and deadly monotonous base jobs are where such fiery worms breed in the brain and bowels.
In the infantry there is the compensation of that strong comradeship that you never get in a base job. There is the simple animal necessity for subjugating all other desires and instincts to the trackâthe earth is our lover; its dangers and its refuge. There is the strong emotional and physical catharsis of fear and battle.
We think of women, sure; we talk of women; we desire them; but of way back and of way ahead.
The Laird spoke nearer the truth than the novelists when he stretched back from the lantern one night, tossed aside the letter he had been reading, and sighed prodigiously: âAh, I wish I was back home with MummaâI wouldnât complain, even if she put her cold feet on my back.â
There was the usual outburst of bawdy clichés and variations on the theme.
âItâs a great sport,â said Whispering John, licking his lips in lascivious travesty. âThe old indoor sport, the horizontal game.â
âDonât tell me you still indulge, John?â said Deacon.
âWhy,â said Fluffy with delight, âa good sweat and a green apple would just about finish you, John.â
âDonât you worry,â sniggered John confidentially. âIâve had my daysâIâve done the stations of the cross in Paris and had my nose rubbed in the Bowery. Iâll warn you: if ever you get to the Bowery donât go putting your head through any trapdoors you might seeâyouâll get your nose rubbed if you do.â
âWere you ever married, John?â asked Fluffy seriously. âIf you donât object to a personal question, like?â
âIâve got an Irish wife in Liverpool,â said John. âAnd thatâs why Iâve never gone back. Iâve got a fat white wench in Panama who looks for me still. And Iâd have married a brown girl in Manilaâbut her husband turned up first.â
The Laird stretched back on his bed and boomed to the world at large: âTime for a brew! Whoâs putting the brew on?â
âIâll light the fire,â said Bishie. He swung his feet down off the bed, tossed his paper-backed thriller, Death in the Dog House , into the appropriate trash box in the middle of the tent and yawned.
âBest go up and scrounge some petrol from transport,â said the Laird. âScorp will give you someâsay I sent you.â
âIs there any wood?â Bishie wanted to know.
âNo wood,â said the Laird. âWeâll get some petrol and make a dirt fire.â
âSomeone get the water,â said Bishie as he went out.
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