here.
âSerious?â Sofi said. âShe took that rope?â
âYeah. We used to come and pretend this flint bit was a tile on a giantâs roof. That we were on top of everything.â
We lay on our bellies, our tops pulled up so the bottoms of our backs were in the sun. Sofi got her chocolate orange out of my bag, battered now, and cracked it open on our rock. She ate it two pieces at a time, sucking first and then scraping the pieces back out of her mouth against her teeth. Her bottom lip was brown, and she coloured in the top, like lipstick, with a stubby segment of chocolate orange. Pip took his top off, shoulders pale and broad as a canvas, collarbone like an anchor. He sat cross-legged. Heâd taken his notebook out of his back pocket and was writing in it, pretending not to listen to our conversation.
âWould you rather your hand be stuck â for the rest of your life â in an unbreakable jam jarâ¦â (this was Sofi, every other word italicized) â⦠or that everything you ever eat again for the rest of your life taste of tuna?â
âTuna,â I said.
âSo quick to answer! Itâs not with mayonnaise, you know. Itâs plain, tinned, tuna.â
âTuna.â
âItâs in brine. â
âNot being jam-jar-hand. It would wither.â
âI know, but tuna ⦠fuck. â She looked out to sea, shaking her head.
Sofi took these questions so seriously. Weâd wake up in the morning and the first thing sheâd say to me was that sheâd changed her mind. Sheâd decided it would be better if her dad walked in on her and her dog, rather than vice versa. Iâd be half asleep, and it would take a while to work out what she was talking about.
âFine,â she said now. âThe tuna. Fine. Maybe thatâs better. But, would you rather â sleep with Armin â or the Ross man who has all the tractors?â
âNo more, Sofi, no more.â Though there were always more. I suppose they were ways of asking the questions you wanted the answers to. I asked her if sheâd ever been in love, and she said no.
âI want to go to Paris,â she said then, as if it was the logical step in a conversation about love. âHave you been? I so want to go.â
Iâd been there on a school exchange. Weâd partnered with a convent but one of the nuns died while we were there and we didnât get to go to Disneyland.
âItâs OK,â I said. âBit overrated.â
âNot for me. Iâve seen films, itâs perfect for me. La Haine. All of that.â
âSofi,â Pip chimed in, looking up from his notebook, his shoulders red despite the suncream, â La Haine is about Algerian immigrants in tower blocks. We watched it for GCSE. Itâs about murder.â
âThatâs what I mean. I like it whatever. Whatever. Look.â She was holding a segment of chocolate orange between her fingers, using it firmly, like a teacher, as if it made her argument stronger. âI am going to Paris and none of you bastards can stop me.â
âNo oneâs trying to,â I said. âYouâre having a fight with yourself. If you go, Iâll come and meet you under the Eiffel Tower one day.â
âReally?â she said. She softened. She realized the piece of chocolate orange was softening too, and that it was the last one, and she offered it to me.
I shook my head about the chocolate. But about Paris: âReally,â I said. She put the top of her forehead against my arm, and stroked me with it, like a cat, clumsily. Her head was so hot, you could almost feel the activity going on inside it. âIâll be there, jam jar on hand, eating tuna, whatever.â
âI might be there too,â suddenly, from Pip. âIâve got family there. Mumâs side.â
We had never heard him say the word mum before. It felt too easy a word for
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