couldn’t explain, I wanted to know if she was alright. “I need to go.”
She sat up. “Right now? We’re in the middle of somethin’ here.”
I grabbed my jeans and ignored her pleas. “Look, I didn’t come here to fuck you. I came here to set things straight. I can’t change the way I am. You can deal with it, or tell me to fuck off. It is what it is.”
I could tell she was upset, but trying her best to hide it. “It’s fine. I know the routine.”
I kissed her on the cheek before walking out. The whole ride home I thought about how my balls were going to hurt like hell if I didn’t finish myself off. I was pissed that I hadn’t just finished what we started before heading home.
When I arrived, I found my place empty. I text Ford and he said he hadn’t seen her. After checking her car I walked around back and found her asleep in a chair. She was curled up and not even wearing a warm jacket.
I picked her up and carried her inside, right into my bedroom. She shot up. “I’m not sleeping in here with you.”
I kicked my shoes in my closet and closed the door. “I’ll sleep on the couch.”
“What about the spare bedroom?”
“The mattress sucks. I prefer the couch.” Why did she want to know? I gave her my bed and was letting her stay, even though she wasn’t going to give me any.
I tried to get comfortable on the couch, but it wasn’t my bed. Lacey had come out to use the bathroom and ask ed for something else. “Can I borrow a t-shirt?”
“First my bed and now my clothes. For someone that won’t get naked with me, you sure do expect a lot,”
“I got locked out. Don’t worry, though. I won’t make this a habit.”
“I don’t mind.” I grabbed the first thing in my drawer and tossed it over. “Is this good?”
She smiled and all I could think about was her naked body wearing my clothes. “Thanks for bringing me inside. How did you know I was out back?”
“Ford text me and asked if you were staying with me. When I got back and you weren’t here, I text him. He said you weren’t there either, so I checked out back. I figured you’d locked yourself out of both places, bein’ as you were so upset earlier.” Okay, so he’d really called me, but it didn’t matter. It was still a call and they were still concerned. All that mattered was that she was inside and she wasn’t going to freeze to death.
“You’ve been a good fake boyfriend today. Thanks for that.”
I had to make my intentions known. “How about I keep up the lie and sleep in here with you?”
She crossed her arms and seemed immediately annoyed. “I’m not sleeping with you, Joey.”
“I didn’t want to sleep.”
She threw a pillow in my direction. “Stop!”
I’d no sooner got myself comfortable again on the couch when I heard her screaming my name.
“JOEY.”
I ran in the room, thinking she’d seen a mouse or something. “What’s wrong?”
She patted the bed. “If you promise not to try anything, we can share.”
“So glad you get to make the rules in my apartment.” I wasn’t going to argue with the offer, even though I knew nothing would happen. In fact, I’d probably have my testicles explode before Lacey offered to relieve the pressure.
For a little while I lay there next to her, smelling her hair and thinking about how different she was. I was still perplexed to be in a situation where I’d promised to never let myself get in. Still, she was so fragile, beautiful and enticing. As much as I was fighting it, I knew being around her was going to break me. She already was. I’d been sleeping with Candace for years and couldn’t even fuck her in my bed. I had to take her in the guest room. Here I was days later, lying in bed next someone, comforting her, as if she meant something to me.
I knew I had to say something; to do something to show that I wasn’t the asshole that everyone thought I was. I wanted her to see me as someone that cared. I leaned over and kissed her on the
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