she asked.
âLike hell.â He took the stick and popped it into the side of his mouth. âHow do you suppose itâs going? Kicking nicotine is worse than going off heroin or cocaine. Ask any junkie whoâs tried to shake all three.â
Savannah made a mental note to question any non-cigarette smoking, former heroin/cocaine junkies she might encounter in the future. And while she was at it, sheâd ask them if going cold turkey off those substances was half as miserable as a 1,000 calories a day diet that didnât include chocolateâwhile you were in the throes of PMS.
Now that was suffering!
Dirk had been trying to quit smoking for months. The cinnamon sticks must be working. He was still officially on the smoke-free wagon.
Or maybe it was the nicotine patches on his butt, the ones he didnât think she knew about.
She had found the wrappers among the taco and hamburger litter in the backseat of his car. And sheâd checked the following day and found two moreâa day when sheâd seen him in nothing but a pair of cutoffs.
Never try to fool a detective .
Another one of her mottos.
She turned in her seat and looked at him, studying his face in the one second flashes of headlights from passing cars.
He did look tired. And older.
She couldnât help thinking that years ago, when they had first met, Dirk had definitely been a hunkâback when she had definitely been a babe. Now in their forties, they wereâ¦wellâ¦a little bit past hunk and babe. Not much past, but a tad.
Too bad we didnât realize how very hunkish and babeesque we were back then , she thought. We could have savored that brief time a little more .
And she thought of something that Granny Reid had told her a few years ago.
Savannah had been looking in her bathroom mirror, frowning at some new lines that were beginning on her forehead.
âGran, Iâm getting old,â she said. âLook at these wrinkles.â
Granny walked up behind her, put her hands on Savannahâs shoulders, and peered at her granddaughterâs reflection in the mirror. âLord have mercy, child. You arenât old. What are you frettinâ about?â
âIâm not as young as I used to be.â
âWell, glory be, girl. Who is?â She turned Savannah around to face her. Her eyes shone with wisdom and good humor as she reached out with her forefinger and pushed one of Savannahâs dark curls out of her eyes and behind her ear. âSavannah girl, if the good God in heaven blesses you with long life, you will be old someday. And then, youâll look back and realize how much of your sweet youth was just plum wasted worrying âbout getting old. Donât even start that nonsense, sugar. Itâs such a foolish path to walk down.â
Looking into her grandmotherâs face, Savannah thought that she wouldnât have taken away a single line from that sweet countenance. She couldnât imagine changing one thing about this woman she adoredânot one wrinkle, one gray hair, one extra pound.
Maybe Gran was right. Maybe worrying about the inevitable and unavoidable was a waste of time and energy.
âIf youâve just got to worry about something,â Granny Reid continued, âworry about the child across town whoâs going to bed hungry tonight or the young mother next door who canât make her rent. Thatâs the sort of thing you might be able to do something about. Donât bother about a little line on your face that donât amount to a hill of beans.â
And since that day, Savannah had spent less time peering into the mirror, searching for signs of aging. Instead, she had made a habit of looking deeply into the eyes of the woman in the mirror and saying in a voice that sounded a lot like Granâs, âYouâre doinâ good, sweetheart. Youâve been through your ups and downs, but youâve mostly done your best. Youâre
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