from L.A. tomorrow. The house has this thirty-dollar-a-yard carpet theyâll have to pay someone to vacuum every other day.â Inevitably, she started to cry.
Maggie whispered, in return. âPollyâs new baby is a girl. She heard this morning. Theyâre bringing her Wednesday. A baby with special needs. What can that mean? All babies have special needs. Sometimes they donât go away. What about Jay? I canât believe the way he looks at me. What about Stevie? Does Polly hope weâll disappear? Is all this so Iâll have to go to Texas?â
Gretchen sighed noisily. âHe tells me, âyou knew it all along.â I hate him when he says that. Weâve been lovers for three months. Okay I knew, like I know about the ozone layer. Like I know about taxes. It threatens, but itâs abstract. I saw her in Retribution . It wasnât great, but sheâs a movie star. What does she want with Blake? Why does she want a house in Lupine?â
Maggie said, âI didnât really think heâd go without me. Why does he want to live so far away from home? Doesnât he understand that kids need family? They talk funny in Texas. A letterâs not enough, not when heâs not even sorry about leaving. What does he think marriage is?â
âIf anyone said to me the whole thing is just sex, Iâd bust them in their loud mouth. Bust her , I guess.â
âItâs a lot more than sex. Itâs everything.â Finally, they were talking about the same thing.
âMo thought youâd go, you know. Right up to the last minute. So did I. It was double-dare. You should go, whatâs here?â
Maggie switched off the light. Stars twinkled on the ceiling. She and Gretchen had put them there their senior year in high school, using a paper stencil. She could make out Cassiopeia.
Maybe they would talk tomorrow. She moved close to Gretchen. âBlake has a weak chin,â she said.
Gretchen snickered. âHeâs pathetic. Iâm pathetic.â
âJoin the club,â Maggie said.
Gretchen moaned and tossed so, Maggie moved out to her own bed in the cottage sometime in the night. Mo woke her at seven.
âI worried about Stevie all night,â he said.
âSheâs fine.â Maggie was still sleepy, and glad the call wasnât one of the schools. âWeâre all still in bed,â she said, though she didnât know whether her children were awake or not.
âSorry.â
âItâs okay.â
âI get an early start, while itâs cool. The mornings are pretty.â
âIâm keeping Jay home today. Weâll do something. He seems so moody, I thought maybe heâd talk to me.â
âI feel torn in half, Maggie. I want to come home, itâs crazy being away from you. But the job is great. Austinâs great.â
âI donât want to do this now. Iâm not all the way awake.â
âYeah. Well.â Both of them sour again. But Mo said, âIâm going to come up sometime in the summer. If you donât come here, I mean.â
âJay misses you a lot.â
âAnd weâll figure it out then.â
âIf it can be figured out.â Her same old stubbornness was stiffening her neck. âThis is home, Mo. This is where we live.â Why couldnât he understand?
âIâm not going to argue on the phone.â
âWhatâs to argue about?â
âOnly our lives. All four of us.â
âIâm going back to sleep.â
âMaggie. Donât hang up mad.â
âWhatâs the use, Mo?â
âThe use is only everything. The use is we have two kids and I love you .â
Maggie gulped. âI love you too,â she said, but very quietly. She hung up before he could make too much of it.
Jay stumbled out to eat cereal about nine, then went back to bed. Maggie looked to Polly for a hint of what to do with him, but
Rosemary Rowe
William S. Burroughs
Jennifer Schmidt
Tim Parks
Sarah Adams
Maureen Child
Joan Aiken
Carol Rose
Claire Farrell
John Elder Robison