not worthy of it. Trust my words, I’m going to fall in love again, and you’re going to regret this moment for the rest of your life.”
She seemed hysterical, as if she didn’t know what to think, to say, or to feel.
“ I’m—”
“ You’re what?” I barked. “Sorry, again? Spare me the same old tripe. I’m over it,” I stated with finality as I directed my gaze towards where our son was fighting for his life.
I had wished things were different, that I could be a part of his life. I had wish I could see him take his first step, cut his first tooth, his first everything, but it wasn’t in the cards for me. It was hard to accept, though I had already signed a contract that gave my rights away.
Coming to terms with that was so much harder after seeing and meeting Gian Luca. I knew I must, though. I had no choice in the matter.
“ Whatever you need to make sure my son gets the best of everything, just contact Gino. He’ll give you whatever you need, anything at all.”
I was getting ready to leave. I was forming the right words to tell my son I couldn’t be in his life when I heard her speak behind me.
“ Divorce isn’t an option.”
I didn’t care what reasons she had. In my eyes, Kimberly served Kimberly. She didn’t care to raise our son with his own father. Instead, she chose to stay married to Anton. She cared for her own benefit, not her son’s and surely not mine.
She loved me? Ha. That was laughable. I doubted the woman knew how to love.
Willing to keep ignoring her, I tried to memorize my son, knowing I might not see him for a very, very long time.
“ You think it’s just you who’s hurt? I think of you every waking moment of the day. You have no idea how much it’s costing me not to throw caution to the wind and say to hell with it all, marry you, and have a great little family, but I fucking can’t! I’m afraid I have no choice in the matter. I gave it away.”
I tensed, knowing that something was amiss. “What do you mean by ‘you gave it away’?”
“ I can’t say…” she said reluctantly, making me spin on my heels to face her.
“ Oh, for fuck’s sake! For once, I wish you would just tell me the fucking truth!”
She looked away, staring at something yet not seeing it at all. “If I do, there’ll be consequences, and I can’t take that risk. God help me, but I just can’t, Luca … not even for you.”
She was speaking in riddles. Not only was I frustrated and infuriated that I had no clue where she was going with this, but I felt as though she was torn about giving me what I was demanding, despite the fact that she was dying to tell me. At the same time, she knew she couldn’t. Whatever it was, I wasn’t leaving until I heard it from her.
“ Well hell, it’s either you tell me, or I start taking this matter with you seriously and hire the right people to straightened this situation out. My son—my precious boy—is on the line here, so you better start talking.”
“ Your mother offered me to have this child aborted, but I fought not to, and my selfish actions caused irreparable consequences.”
I saw fireworks from too much anger upon hearing my infamous mother had orchestrated something that had to deal with Kimberly. More importantly, it had to deal with my son whom she had wanted aborted. The wretched woman had the audacity to play with my son’s fate? She had better watch out.
“ How in God’s name did she find out you were pregnant?”
“ I’m not sure, but I think the doctor I went to get checked by told her, or maybe she had me followed. She never really said how she found out.”
My mother and all the details could be dealt with soon enough. There was another pressing matter I wanted to know. She had stated consequences after Gian Luca, so what wasn’t she telling me?
“ What exactly is on the line here, Kimberly?”
“ My brother’s life.”
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Monza: Book 3
September 2015
Barcelona (Andrés)
Fall 2015
Nice
She seemed hysterical, as if she didn’t know what to think, to say, or to feel.
“ I’m—”
“ You’re what?” I barked. “Sorry, again? Spare me the same old tripe. I’m over it,” I stated with finality as I directed my gaze towards where our son was fighting for his life.
I had wished things were different, that I could be a part of his life. I had wish I could see him take his first step, cut his first tooth, his first everything, but it wasn’t in the cards for me. It was hard to accept, though I had already signed a contract that gave my rights away.
Coming to terms with that was so much harder after seeing and meeting Gian Luca. I knew I must, though. I had no choice in the matter.
“ Whatever you need to make sure my son gets the best of everything, just contact Gino. He’ll give you whatever you need, anything at all.”
I was getting ready to leave. I was forming the right words to tell my son I couldn’t be in his life when I heard her speak behind me.
“ Divorce isn’t an option.”
I didn’t care what reasons she had. In my eyes, Kimberly served Kimberly. She didn’t care to raise our son with his own father. Instead, she chose to stay married to Anton. She cared for her own benefit, not her son’s and surely not mine.
She loved me? Ha. That was laughable. I doubted the woman knew how to love.
Willing to keep ignoring her, I tried to memorize my son, knowing I might not see him for a very, very long time.
“ You think it’s just you who’s hurt? I think of you every waking moment of the day. You have no idea how much it’s costing me not to throw caution to the wind and say to hell with it all, marry you, and have a great little family, but I fucking can’t! I’m afraid I have no choice in the matter. I gave it away.”
I tensed, knowing that something was amiss. “What do you mean by ‘you gave it away’?”
“ I can’t say…” she said reluctantly, making me spin on my heels to face her.
“ Oh, for fuck’s sake! For once, I wish you would just tell me the fucking truth!”
She looked away, staring at something yet not seeing it at all. “If I do, there’ll be consequences, and I can’t take that risk. God help me, but I just can’t, Luca … not even for you.”
She was speaking in riddles. Not only was I frustrated and infuriated that I had no clue where she was going with this, but I felt as though she was torn about giving me what I was demanding, despite the fact that she was dying to tell me. At the same time, she knew she couldn’t. Whatever it was, I wasn’t leaving until I heard it from her.
“ Well hell, it’s either you tell me, or I start taking this matter with you seriously and hire the right people to straightened this situation out. My son—my precious boy—is on the line here, so you better start talking.”
“ Your mother offered me to have this child aborted, but I fought not to, and my selfish actions caused irreparable consequences.”
I saw fireworks from too much anger upon hearing my infamous mother had orchestrated something that had to deal with Kimberly. More importantly, it had to deal with my son whom she had wanted aborted. The wretched woman had the audacity to play with my son’s fate? She had better watch out.
“ How in God’s name did she find out you were pregnant?”
“ I’m not sure, but I think the doctor I went to get checked by told her, or maybe she had me followed. She never really said how she found out.”
My mother and all the details could be dealt with soon enough. There was another pressing matter I wanted to know. She had stated consequences after Gian Luca, so what wasn’t she telling me?
“ What exactly is on the line here, Kimberly?”
“ My brother’s life.”
=-=-=-=
Monza: Book 3
September 2015
Barcelona (Andrés)
Fall 2015
Nice
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