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nuzzle. After a few moments, she inhales deeply
and starts to speak again. Her voice is very quiet; “He accused me
of not really caring about him and the kids. Why would he say
that?” Deidra asks in agonized confusion, but she doesn’t wait for
Lucian to respond. “And then he said they were just placeholders.
And I had been waiting for my real life to begin again. Oh God,
Lucian. What the hell does that mean?”
    “I am not sure,” he says softly.
    “Part of her knows this is not the life she
was meant to live, but she can’t let go of it because of her
children. Perhaps that’s why she seems to have a duality in her
awareness. On some level, she knows I am with her almost all of the
time,” Luca muses to himself.
    He gently pulls her closer to him and lightly
holds her in his arms, as he hopes she doesn‘t pick up on his
uneasiness. “Remember love, it’s just a dream. Rolan wasn’t really
there accusing you of anything.” Luca is very confused by this
because he knows she wasn’t actually asleep. Her heart beat and
respirations made that clear to him. This had been a vision or
something, but not a dream… And he wonders what the vision means,
and its source.
    The silence stretches out over the minutes.
The tears flow softly down her cheeks as Lucian places a silent
kiss on top of her head, and soothes her taut shoulders with his
left hand. “Did you find the kids this time?” Lucian asks quietly
after several minutes of silence between them. Searching for her
children is a common theme of her dreams so this is a reasonable
question.
    Deidra starts to move away from his strong
arms that are stirring feelings in her that she really should not
be feeling. He smiles at her nervousness around him and says, “Come
here Dee, stop running away. Talk to me!” He draws her onto his
lap.
    She inhales deeply of his scent and feels
lightheaded. She uses both hands to roughly rake her hair back from
her face, and then exhales slowly. “No, they are gone from me
forever. I don’t deserve them, I never did and they know that. I
think they are staying away.”
    “It was just a dream, remember?” Lucian
places his cool fingers under her chin and tilts her face up toward
his own.
    Deidra’s eyes lock on his lips, and she gulps
and nods. The desire to kiss him nearly overwhelms her and leaves
her feeling insecure, aroused and confused as hell. She stiffens
and tries to move off his lap.
    “No baby, don’t pull away from me. Why do you
always do that?” he asks quietly in frustration.
    His use of that endearment makes everything
south of her waist clench and she refuses to look at him for a
moment. “I don’t know,” she lies. Her need for him makes her feel
vulnerable and ashamed. This causes her to feel angry with herself
and desperate to get away.
    She gathers her courage and looks into his
beautiful luminescent blue eyes; “It’s just that I don’t want to
need... I don’t deserve... Hell! Let go of me!” she grinds out
between clenched teeth. “I am acting like an idiot.”
    “No, you aren’t.” He firmly holds her cradled
in his arms as she tries to push away. “Do you really want me to
let go of you? I don‘t think so,” he says gently.
    “I know. I just feel like I should,” she
whispers. She closes her eyes and sits there silently for a few
minutes letting him hold her, taking comfort from him. And then she
speaks very quietly, “I am so damn close to crossing a line and
making a huge mistake with you, Lucian.”
    She tries again to move away. When he won’t
release her she suddenly stops trying to get away, and moves her
hands up to encircle his neck and peers into his eyes. “I’m gonna
do a big piece of stupid if I don’t get up right now!”
    Lucian’s laugh is low and throaty as he bends
down to nuzzle her neck with his chilly lips. “Oh really, baby?” he
taunts gently. “A big piece of stupid, huh?”
    “The biggest,” she sighs.
    His lips on her neck ignite a fire deep